I hate boys..

I love liz!

but.. that doesn't make me a lesbian.

You know what, mister, I'm glad you didn't call me. If you had I wouldn't have gotten to spend such quality time with my wife, so thank you for that.

:(

5 years ago...

How old were you?
14

What grade were you in?
8th

Where did you go to school?
Douglas Middle School

Where did you work?
I didn't.

Where did you live?
in our house in Rapid City

Where did you hang out?
Sam Butts' house, Candace Flavin's house? I don't remember..

How was your hair style?
medium in length.. brown.. no highlights.. i don't think.

Did you wear braces?
5 years ago? i had them for a month or two of my 8th grade year, and then got them off, thank God.

Did you wear glasses?
no

Who was your best friend?
I don't remember, it changed from week to week...haha maybe not that drastically.

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
I went out with Jessie Krebs, Brandon (don't remember his last name.. ha!) Nick Black.... .... there're probably some I'm forgetting.. oh well.

Who was your celebrity crush?
???????????????????

Who was your regular-person crush?
Jason Rivera, Russ Reed, Mike Whichard, Nate Demma

How many piercings did you have?
1 in each ear

How many tattoos did you have?
zero

What was your favorite band?
oh geez, the beatles :) and probably something dumb like linkin park.

What was your biggest fear?
i'm not sure

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?
yes (STUPID)

Had you gotten drunk or high yet?
yes (STUPIDER)

Had you driven yet?
nope, well not legally.

Which of your pets were still alive?
tweety and sylvester

Now....


How old are you?
19

What grade are you in?
college freshman

Where do you go to school?
UNL

Where do you work?
I don't... possibly back at famous footwear for christmas

Where do you live?
selleck

Where do you hang out?
selleck/westbrook

What is your hair style?
pretty long.. no highlights...

Do you wear braces?
no

Do you wear glasses?
nope

Who is your best friend?
I don't really have a best friend here.

Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend?
....

Who is your celebrity crush?
I don't really have one, I never really have one.

Who is your regular-person crush?
Michael Tully (jokingly), someone I shouldn't like, and Alek Shybut

How many piercings do you have?
3 in my left ear, 2 in my right

How many tattoos do you have?
zero

What is your favorite band?
lee hester, brother luke, coldplay, the beatles, and pretty much any musical i hear right now. (not a band, but i don't care)

What is your biggest fear?
not telling.

Do you smoke?
nope

Do you get drunk or high?
nope

Do you drive?
occaisionally

Which of your pets are still alive?
sylvester

Did you know the person who posted this right before you?
Yes, Lizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz I love you.

I haven't seen most of you guys in awhile.. and that makes me sad. :(

I'm in this dumb choral festival tonight.. gar.. it's so stupid. BUT whatever. It's going to be a long ass night. I have a short story to read, and a reader's response to write.. and.. I just might shoot myself.. I know that's not a lot to do.. but I don't have the time or energy.

Do any of you know Alek Shybut? just curious..

I had given up, or almost given up.

I really had.

Andy and I didn't talk Tuesday besides having breakfast together and the occaisional mini-conversation.

Last night I decided to stop pushing it, to stop forcing things. I decided I wouldn't go out of my way to talk to him.. to see what would happen.

I don't like playing games, and that wasn't really my intent. I just don't feel that one person should have to make all the effort.

So I didn't see him all day, except for maybe twice, but he didn't come talk to me. I always assume it's because he didn't want to, when I suppose it could be a million other things.

I was sitting around talking to Susan tonight, when he knocks on my door.

Whaaaaaaat????!!!?!?!?!

It's amazing!

You're kidding!

He did what?

I was surprised... happily.

I guess when I stop forcing things to be a certain way, they finally go the way I want them to.

So I went to the dining hall with him, to keep him company.

Saw Lizz and Mikey... :) Who both made inappropriate gestures as we were leaving.. tsk tsk.

Then we did our homework together, again. Just like the first couple days we were getting to know each other. I love just being in his presence. I know that's ridiculously cheesy, but I love sitting in a room, doing my homework, with the music going, listening to him randomly sing along.

I love that it doesn't have to be physical. I just wish he'd give me some sign of his interest.. other than platonic...
GIVE ME A SIGN, Damn it!

Oh man. Anywho...

I loved my hair yesterday, and I hate it today.. Argh. What's wrong with me?

That was random.

I know you guys just tell me to stick my tongue down his throat (back to Andy.. by the way) but.. how forward is TOO forward? I don't want to push him away.. but I don't want him to slip away either. You know? That's a very different way to put it.. but I hope you catch my drift.

By the way.. I'm obsessive, so that's why I talk about one thing for so damn long without tiring. Argh.

I'll stop it here so you don't have to read the same shit over and over and over.

I most definitely won $100 playing my oboe today.

I definitely love Liz, my wife.. and no honey I did not get bored tonight.

I haven't seen Lizz in soooo long, it really feels like forever.

Tonight, I hung out with Andy.. hehe.. (I never 'hehe' what's wrong with me....) We watched the ring 2... interesting.. kinda scary, but i spook easily. He's a great guy. Anyway.. I'll fill you in later, and darn it Mikey I kept my tongue to myself.. hmmmm

So I definitely have enough places to post the shit that happens in my life, but I guess here's another one. The only real reason I got this was so I could comment on Mikey and the Liz(z)es posts.

I was walking today, and Andy was walking towards me on his phone. I waved as I passed him but he started walking backwards with me, it was pretty adorable.

so I definitely should have just made this what the post above is.. crap.